You would think a month or so off from schedule conflicts and doctor visits would be nice, it's not. My sleep study is one again delayed because of a disagreement with the hospital and doctors office about how many forms are necessary. There is also the new mysterious order for a 24 hour EEG that the hospital is opposed to doing without a known diagnosis. Humorously the Doctor is on leave which is not likely why the paperwork fight erupted.On the home front I am dealing with a sleep schedule change that isn't going well. I'm not even sure what prompted it. Now of course I'm having panic inducing dreams and waking up with muscle weakness. Having recently found out about nocturnal epilepsy in my grandmothers line I am starting to wonder. My bigger trigger after all is sleep deprivation. Epilepsy however scares the crap out of me. Not because of what it is but what it means for me. I would most likely lose my drivers liscense which means I'd lose my car as well since the unlicensed cant own vehicles. It would affect my ability to gain employment at a future time as well if it's on medical record. I just talked to my fiancée about this regarding Medical marajuana liscense. Sure I could get one but it's a registered certificate meaning it shows up on a background check. I could just as easily have a regular prescription for pain without the discrimination. My household can't survive without me as a driver and I just bought that darn van!
My dreams though I really can't deal with them well. The first few were medical torture dreams concocted from every test every done to me then placed in the most anxiety inducing locale. I haven't been doing anything to trigger bad dreams that I know but with how I feel upon waking I am fairly certain something nuerological was going on. I guess in someways being found epileptic might garuntee me SSI for life but I wanted my free will and choice to work even it never came to fruition. The only good news regarding epilepsy for me is that it is specifically, Nocturnal Frontal Lobe Epilepsy, that runs in my family. That should mean I can retain my license if I work hard at it. My next doctors visit is with the hematologist for new lab tests. I'll also be getting fillings at the dentist that afternoon. Not my favorite thing. Trying for some shut eye now... To tired to proofread.