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So there's about a month and a half left to my original disability claim process. Suddenly I am being called back for a last minute exam. I hadn't received the letter myself before my boyfriend came bursting into the room bubbling over with laughter and put the letter in front of me to read.

An IQ test. Strange request in some ways, making me doubt what they have found in my records already. The most logical explination is that they are going with the premise that no matter what physical limitations if I am as smart as Steven Hawking then it wouldn't matter whether I can stand, breathe, lift or walk. According to my therapist it is more likely an excuse to not only test intelligence but also redo the cognitive examination to see if I have gotten worse or better.

You know even anti-gravity controls could not help me much with my busted speech center and motor control. Sure I wouldn't have to lift my arms myself but what would it matter if I still couldn't grasp anything.

Along the lines of intelligence I have taken an IQ test before for fun and I know it's been administered to me in primary school. It would be a shame to score genius level since I'm sure that wouldn't do any good but as a pride booster might be nice. The real scare here would be getting anything under 90. Depending on how I'm feeling that day it could be the case. I've caught myself staring at pencils and trying to remember how to hold them to write or looking blankly at a math problem wondering how to read it.

These mind divets are really uncontrolable. For example in the previous cognitive exam I had only a few broken words until she asked me what my boyfriend did for a living and I couldn't answer her. Eventually I counted up from the jobs he had before I met him and came accross what he did now but that took 3 minutes of hard thought. My sister has taken this IQ test as well and told me to expect something around a 90 so that's what I will aim for.

Still I have to wonder do they think I'm lying or do they know something dreadful is looming in my records? Doctors have been hush,hush and need to know with me since this whole thing began.