Does it have to be so interactive?

It's a bit weird because I am curbing my impulse to write a instant message to my sister by instead posting an update in this diary blog. She has finally taken the plunge into college enrollment and I don't want to let my blue mood interrupt that. As you can see I've recently watched the film "Inside Out" and while I raged over the imbecility nay the arrogance/narcissim of the character Joy, Sadness had some wonderful one liners and jokes.

One of my favorites comes when she first plops down on her face saying that she needs a few moments....or hours to just be blue. The sluggishness is quite right of those who face real clinical depression not just the situational blues of life based events. Lately I've been having non-circadian rhythm again which is hell on my body's healing and system regulation. The change to daylight savings seemed to have helped and I had a few days where it seemed my schedule normalized but then bam!, it's back to some weird 3/5/8 combination spread out over 72 hours and never in the right order. That loses a lot of productive time during daylight and of course makes it hard to remember what day it is.

Another thing poor sleep does is often trigger neurological symptoms. The otherday I got a strange feeling of my mind kind of floating inside my skull loose that I might burst into vertigo at any moment. At the sametime my legs have been feeling wooden or like lead upon wakening. Very bad signs. However there is some direction to this process. Keeping bad awake hours also affects when I take my medicine. Not taking my pills on schedule causes severe thyroid flares and intestinal distress as well as blood sugar problems. Having passed two episodes of that in September and October I wouldn't want it to happen again.

So the first and most important thing is making sure at least my thyroid medicine is on time which I have managed. The later mid day pills can be more flexible between 11am and 2pm. Being weak from either sleep sickness or not enough is also confusing. While making a morning snack the otherday my hands got weak and tingly as well as my vision getting crosseyed. I didn't know if I needed to sleep or stay awake for it to resolve. Eating helped and I ended up sleeping.

The latest thing to settle is my fluids. I've had salt cravings for which I bought sunflower seeds that really helped and were fun to eat. Salt however wasn't the problem in fact it's probably really a issue of electrolytes and water. This is the time of year I usually get IV treatment and an ER visit both providing one or two large bags of fluid. I can say though investing in a new water bottle and purifier really has helped increase my intake. Yet tonight I have small leg cramps so I can definitely tell it's a fluid thing.